here is the mass email I sent out to everyone in my address book:

With a heavy heart I write this email. As of Wednesday night, Paul and I have decided to cancel our engagement. We found that when faced with some issues, spiritually we weren’t ready for marriage. It was a very difficult decision, but we feel that it’s for the best.

I know the first thing that pops into everyone’s mind is “I want more details!” I know this is going to be really hard, but I can’t – and won’t ever be able to – offer any more details. Please accept this as it is; I can’t handle right now everyone asking “why”.

This past week has been hell for me (and Paul), and my heart is breaking tremendously. I’m still completely in love with Paul. We both recognize that we do still want to marry each other, just not right now. Right now, we are waiting for God to guide us.

All I’m asking for is prayer. Please pray for wisdom and guidance for each of us, and that God would give us peace and strength through everything that has happened.

Thanks so much.
Through Christ’s strength,
Ashley